Hey :) I know exactly how it feels when a someone like a mum finds out about your cutting and its so hard. You dont want them to think that you are doing it purposely to hurt them, but you have this desperate urge the whole time to self harm and try and to it without your mum realising. My mum was so upset when she first found out and I hated her knowing what I was doing, I wouldnt speak to her about it and she would constantly want to see my arms. But as time passes, I promise that your mum will understand more and it helps so much. I dont want to say it is a good thing to carry on cutting, but I know that at the time it feels like a release so if you do cut, remember to not let it get infected and be very careful that you dont cut in a dangerous place. It must scare you a lot to think of going to the doctors, but it is the best thing I have ever done. I got referred to CAMHS and Im now having therapy and on medication that helps so much. So if your mum does see, it isnt necesseraly a bad thing, because you will then get help so you dont have to do it on your own. I hope a little bit of this will help, but I know that you can get through this, and I am here any time you need to talk. I am thinking of you :) x x x