Thank you for your post. I am sure that a lot of people can relate to struggling with this difficult transition time between services. Sometimes not knowing what is next can be really scary, but if you can identify a good friend or a trusted adult who you can still talk to regularly then that might make things feel a bit more secure. Talking is one of the best outlets for our emotions and allows us to structure our thoughts, so it is important to keep that up.
It would be good to get some support for your feelings about food as well. It is great that your harming has reduced! But sometimes we then turn to something else to help us cope, or gain control, and so being honest about your relationship with food to someone else can help prevent that getting out of control. People may not always understand you in the way that you want them to, but there are people who can listen, provide an outsider opinion & help you find support and that can be really useful. I wish you all the best, Donna