I’m coming towards the end of CAMH and I’m confused about what to do next. There are times where I am doing really well and others where I just feel so anxious, sort of strange really like I’m not really there even though I am. I do things I don’t even realise I’m doing and it isn’t until after I realise and regret. I haven’t harmed for a while lately. I just go to the gym instead. I don’t really eat much and if I had my way I probably wouldn’t have anything at all. When I do eat I usually make myself sick because I always think I eat too much no matter how much I eat, I know I shouldn’t have eaten it. I’m just so fat and people can’t understand that I need to lose weight. I just want to be understood by people around me. Sometimes it feels like that is too much to ask..