You know that time when your shouting to ask your mum a question or something from upstairs, you keep trying and she doesnt hear you. so in the end, you give up and shut up and hold it inside til its too late.

Okay, im not gonna lie. I really hope im not the only one that feels like this.. It honestly feels like i am screaming in my mums, counsillors and everyones face, that i really wanna die etc etc.. and they just dont seem to listen.

For example when i was like in A&E the counsillor, saw me in tears, rocking back and forth saying to myself, im gonna die. let me die. So she turns round and say give me a week to work with you? Now at the time, i could have hit her. What on earth makes you think i can hang on a week, look at me?!!! However, i did survive a week, make that two actually. offft.. and im still here now. but at the time it just felt like no one was listening to me anymore. and it annoyed me so much! i have told my cousillor times before like, im feeling suicidal and she just goes, oh you dont really wanna die do you, and we leave it at that after i say urm yes! its not til im actually in hopsital (this happened many times on my OD's) that she goes 'oh, you were serious' yes. i was serious. jeeeez. Anyway i've had my rant now, haaa! i hope im not the only one that feels like this.. comment :)