Emptiness and confusion

I don't know how this all started; about two years ago, self-harming first crossed my mind, on a normal day at a normal time, I was thinking about how pointless and boring life is and that I should do something about it. Then started, and I became addicted. My parents don't know anything, i told them it was the cat or from playing netball, but it gets harder to cover up, especially when I go on holiday or when people ask me "What are those scars on your arms?". I just don't know what to do anymore.. I have no one to tell and I feel like i shouldn't feel like this; there is nothing wrong with my life and I have a future... I think. Something is happening, I don't know what but everything has been a blur and I cant tell whether I'm asleep or awake anymore... and I don't think I care.

ALUMINA

Alumina is a free, online 7 week course for young people struggling with self-harm. Each course has up to 8 young people, all accessing the sessions from their own phones, tablets or laptops across the UK. The courses take place on different evenings of the week and are run by friendly, trained counsellors and volunteer youth workers. You don’t need an adult to refer you or sign you up, and no-one will see or hear you during the sessions – you’ll just join in via the chatbox. We want to help you to find your next steps towards recovery, wherever you are on your journey.

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