So my friends and sister had to find out that I self harmed. My friends figured it out and my sister accidentally saw my cuts. I managed to tell my mum... I thought she would shout but she was calm and just asked me questions. At the moment, one of my friends frequently ask me when the last time I self harmed was.. She asked once but i was scared to tell her that I had cut and had urges to cut that morning. So, I lied. It was a mistake. After that day I self at least once evryday till we went gym together and I confessed that I lied. She was really angry :( . She did keep calm though and she didn't shout she asked me when i last cut and I felt guilty but told her "today, before coming gym" she looked angry/sad. Those were the last things I want her or any of my loved ones to have to feel. The next day she told two other friends and we talked about it. I love them they are my close friends/sisters so I kinda hated myself for making them worry. My second eldest sister scolded me for not caring about myself, but I don't think it's a bad thing better it be self hate then being selfishness right? Anyway, she said she was disappointed in me, then I felt disappointed in myself. I was going to cut myself today but then I found this site so yeah. They want me to stop but I'm not sure if I want to.. Now I wish they didn't find out.. My eldest sister also thinks I stopped, but I didn't. I just stopped cutting my arms.